you're killing me smallsWednesday, November 7, 20071:11PMi've been having the wierdest dreams lately. it makes me confused about certain things. i think i will call up my psychic and pay him a visit. maybe he can help me out. Current mood:  confusedSaturday, November 3, 200712:01AM - boredi talked to my district manager on the phone yesterday. i basically told him how pissed off i am and how everyone is miserable because of certain people. he is making a special trip on tuesday to discuss this with dan. yikes!!! i'm nervous but atleast i'm sticking up for everyone and not afraid of conflict. should be interesting. Monday, October 29, 2007Saturday, October 20, 20075:23PM - exhaustedman it was so busy at work today!!! first time since i've been back. i'm exhausted. i'm frustrated. i just wish people would show up and do their job the right way. i don't ask for much but apparently it's too hard to do what i ask. if you don't like working there then quit!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love our "new" asm. she is hilarious. Current mood:  tiredFriday, October 19, 20079:31PMdear radiohead- Current mood:  giddyCurrent music: radiohead house of cards 7:54PMi LOVE shampooing the carpets. i don't know why. i just find it to be fun. i just did the whole house because i was bored! Current mood:  accomplishedThursday, October 18, 20077:32PM - docsi jsut got home from the neurologist. he was wicked cool and made me feel a lot better. i got blood drawn so we will see what happens. he also mentioned i should get a spinal tap! yikes i'm nervous. i have to go back next week. he still isn't 100% sure but he is exploring every option. he also mentioned that my family doctor didn't treat me properly when i had mono. awesome. Current mood: tiredWednesday, October 17, 20072:43PM - darts!last night was our first night of darts. it was hilarious. me, chris,rich and craig. what a team. best part of the night was taking craig to the wendy's drive thru and listening to him try to order food. he was hammered. he was arguing with the girl over the intercom. he kept laughing. he ordered three meals. he kept trying to talk to us but he was so hammered he just giggled like a school girl. we only won 4 games and lost the others. oh well. we do it for fun! Current mood:  amusedFriday, October 5, 20076:03PMfirst week back was fun. it was sooooo slow today. me and the new asm sat in the office and talked until dan finally let us leave. what a guy. Current mood:  cheerfulWednesday, October 3, 20078:02PM - back in the racei went back to work this week. i've never received so many hugs! i didn't think anyone missed but i guess i was wrong. it feels good to be back after my two month hiatus of health issues. i'm still struggling with driving but i'm getting better slowly. Friday, September 28, 20077:05PM - wowwwwwwwwwwi just got back from the tat shop. it was a hilarious experience. first there was a kid telling me and lindsey about how he is going to italy to become a priest. then there was a gangster wearing a tupac shirt who was getting a jesus on a cross tat. he also requested a razor blade on his wrist and the word hate tattooed on his knuckles. WOWZA! Monday, September 17, 20077:08PMinner issues are starting to consume my life. maybe i will take my doctors advice and go to a therapist. i need someone to talk to. someone that i know will never tell what we talk about. sure i can trust my friends. believe me i have some amazing ones. but they are currently in texas. too far when i need some advice! Tuesday, September 4, 2007Monday, September 3, 20079:28PM - alexi got my tattoo to honor my friend's life that ended way to soon. i miss him so much. i think about him all the time. i wish he could physically be here but i know he is here spiritually. Current mood: thankfulSaturday, September 1, 20076:59PM - tatyesterday lindsay came over and did my tattoo. it looks really good. it still needs some touch ups but after 4 hours my arm couldn't take it anymore. i started to feel exhausted and sick towards the end so i'm glad she stopped. now that i know she does awesome work i will be getting a lot more before the winter! Current mood: tiredFriday, August 31, 20071:15PM - this is getting out of controldoctor still isn't 100% sure what is wrong with me. he thinks i have panic attacks. gave me cymbalta. told me that something in my subconscious triggers my brain. then my breathing gets out of control which brings along the twitching and dizzyness. he said he isn't sure that i am having panic attacks but wants me to try the meds. the meds keep me up all night. i can't sleep. i feel so exhausted. i am exhausted. he is keeping me out of work AGAIN until the meds officially kick in. which takes 4 weeks which means i am out until october 1st. what the fuck. my boss jsut called and he isn't mad. he just wants me to get better which is good. i'm sure everyone else won't be as supportive but they can go to hell!!! Current mood: exhaustedMonday, August 27, 20075:02PM - still sickwent to the hospital again on saturday. i couldn't breathe. my chest felt like it was going to explode. the er doc was the biggest dick in the world. he wouldn't listen to me or my dad. had a ct scan done. got home 3 hours later with of course no explination except for hyperventilation. today i went to the heart doctor. had a heart echo done. had a holtor monitor hooked up to my chest. have to wear it for 24 hours. it's awkward and benny keeps pulling at the wires. i get it removed tomorrow then i go to my regular doctor on wednesday to discuss the results. eye doctor on thursday to make sure my eyes are ok. geeeeez. Current mood:  annoyedTuesday, August 21, 200712:42AMtried to go back to work. again couldn't even drive myself 5 minutes from the house without getting dizzy. went to the doctor. i finally got to see my favorite doctor. he has been treating me since i was a child. he really made me feel like he cared. he explained all of my blood work and tests. he is referring me to a cardiologist because he sort of heard a irregular beat in my heart. i will have to wear a heart monitor for a week. my dad explained to me that when i start to feel dizzy and can't breath i press a button then call a 1-800 number so they can record my heart beats. he put me on a anti-depressant too because i'm so down in the dumps about everything. Current mood: sleepySunday, August 19, 20072:26PM - pissedi'm frustrated. i'm still sick. i'm supposed to go to work tomorrow. mike was supposed to hang out with me yesterday but all he did was hang out with my brother. he didn't even know i went to bed. this weekend he was supposed to go with me to get my car inspected and to help me drive. every day i just sit on the couch by myself at my parent's house. noone to hang out with. my own boyfriend shows no sign of caring about my feelings. i can't drive myself anywhere. hell i can't even go into the store by myself. my medicine makes me exhausted. i'm extremely nervous about going to work tomorrow. i'm sure i'll have to leave early. i just hope i can make it through the managers meeting without passing out. someone i never expected to care calls me every day to make sure i'm ok and to see if i need anything. it feels like my friends have dropped off the face of the earth. i guess i'm no fun because i can't get drunk and party. maybe that's what alot of my friendships revolved around. Current mood:  depressedWednesday, August 15, 20071:30PM - update number 10000000yesterday i went to the neurologist. WHAT A WACKO. this guy was insane. he hardly spoke english,kept asking me the same questions, kept asking my mom questions, wouldn't make eye contact with me so he basically talked to my mom the whole time. my mri was normal so now i have to get these brain tests where they hook me up to some machine for two hours while it checks my brain waves. then i have to get another test. then i ahve to go back in three months. what the fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! man maybe i should go to med school because you obviously don't need to know anything. you just get paid a lot of money to tell patients "i'm not sure what's wrong". Current mood: tiredNavigate: (Previous 20 entries) |
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